~ Life right now

Life right now: February 13, 2011.

It was sad to leave my other job that was the glue and stepping stone to the start of my new life in Toronto. The people at my previous job are exceptional people who carried themselves with such pose and each with their own genuine caring intriguing character- something I am not use to seeing in a professional job setting.

I took the time I needed to reflect on my journey from the start of the summer until now... and I must say... I knew I made the right decision to start my new life in Toronto. I’ve learned to build a trusting relationship with my gut and my emotions- as one of my mentors Simon Cowell says, “Your emotions is key”. Although there were several people who I love that misunderstood me, or questioned my intentions, or lost faith in my decisions, I trust that one day they will understand and the results will speak for itself. I also hope that they will understand and trust that everyone who they call family and love so dearly is trying to reach for their individual star, and that losing fate and encouragement will only lead themselves into misery.

I just started a new amazing job with an incredible company at the start of this month, February 2011. I love the work and it’s a challenge every single day. It’s definitely a perfect fit for me right now; except that I don’t like to wear a suit everyday. Lol. I find it so interesting when I observe the people at my work and their individual characters. Everyone is young in their 20’s, and I already have sorted out the elites from the people without much ambition. I find it more interesting when I observe and sort the true leaders from the great-at-just-their-job in the groups of elites. This enhanced my understanding of how important it is to not only be the best at what you do but also to build on a genuine and exceptional character that is both personable and sensible.

Aside from my professional life, I recognized that my life is more calm and well positioned after getting rid of most of the clutter in my life, and keeping focus on my priorities and the big picture. I’ve been treating myself to more solitude time as well. I read about how important it is to give yourself solitude time, and I now truly realize this importance. It was during my solitude time alone at the harbourfront last Sunday, February 6th that I was able to reflect on my journey since the start of the summer until now, and realize how much I’ve grown and changed for the better. And then I remembered that my mentor Jim Rohn turned his whole life around at the age of 25, and how he became a self made millionaire by the time he was 30 years old- I find this intriguing. Hehehe... we’ll see. Everyday I’m either reading my business magazines during my spare time or listening to autobiographies and speeches. It amazes me on how much I crave for more knowledge and wisdom, and how I take the time to try and absorb all of it and use everything that I learn to the best of my abilities. Life ahead is only brighter, and everyday I’m becoming more confident, more capable, and more believing in that all my humongous dreams are within reach. I know I will get there and achieve all of it, and whoever doubts any of this... well, lets just say... I’ll be the loudest one laughing dazing at the sunset.

~I’m looking sharp in one direction.

SEEING EYE TO EYE

I still remember growing up as a child, playing inside and outside from the later morning until the later evening; being careless with no worries on our minds with the ones I loved; my brothers and sisters, my parents, my friends, my family. I can still remember my siblings and I getting into trouble after a long day of playing, and it seemed like the people that were giving us trouble (my parents) were the only ones frustrated… my siblings and I would laugh and giggle in disguise when being yelled at. And we would get a pinch or a twisting of our ear if we were caught reacting this way to my parents frustrations. LOL. Oh how I miss these days…

These were the days when we loved each other the most and saw each other for each other’s worth, rather than each others material growth. These were the days when we saw eye to eye, and loved each other no matter what… we were all young soldiers who were fearless of displaying our true character, whether it was goofing off, laughing to the stupidest jokes, or showing how much we were hurt or loved each other by crying from the heart. We were soldiers who also were unafraid to dream, and to believe in each others dreams… holding hands tightly when things got really bad.

These days have long gone, but these memories still are alive in galore.

Why is it that when we grow up, we no longer see each other eye to eye?
Why is it that now most of us no longer can relate?
Or why is it that now, most of us place ourselves on a peddle stool, looking down on those who we once ruled the world with as little soldiers?

Life in itself brings forward many challenges, disappointments, failures, successes, and so much more. Going through such whirlwinds can be overwhelming and distort our ability to see beyond how each and one of us have grown up to be, and can ultimately distort our ability to see each other’s true value; and I don’t mean value in terms of material value. Some of us propel much quicker than others towards the general perception of “success”, and then there are others who feel behind because they’re navigating on an unfamiliar path, and then there are also those who have no motivation to go anywhere in life at all. It does not matter what situation you are in or how successful you are. If you cannot see eye to eye with those who marched with you as little soldiers, you have become blind.

I’m writing this blog today, because I have experienced this, and being able to see this clearly was painful. It was painful seeing those who I love and those who I have known drift a part for this one reason of forgetting where we came from and not being able to speak to one another with respect and integrity.

I hope that all of you can take some time to galore in your memories and recollect those feelings that were left behind, and bring them present and share them again with the soldiers you called family. I also hope that we can all again see eye to eye, in every moment of our life; whether it’s joy or pain.

I want to end this blog by saying to everyone in my family (you know who you are when I speak of family) that I love all of you and that there is not a day in my life that I do not think of and wish the best for all of you, and I hope that all of us can for now on see eye to eye, and LIVE LIFE in the present by not forgetting about the past. Also, if there is anyone out there who I have ever shared a moment in my growing up with, I just want to say that I haven’t forgotten and that I hope life will bring us together again to celebrate the many joys and mysteries of life.